In May 2013 I was diagnosed with OCD. Which stands for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I already knew that I had it and seeing the doctor about it just confirmed it for me and explains a lot of things. Now youre probably thinking, ahhh don’t we all have it?,Well yeah maybe. It’s all easy to say this but for people like myself it gets a little annoying hearing this. I’ve been wanting to write about this subject for a very long time and I feel that now is good for me. People who have met me and my close friends can see this in me, and to be honest it’s not something that I hide from people. I’m not ashamed or embarrassed, this is not something that just happened over night, it’s not something that I thought up one day and decided hey I have OCD.
We are talking about a mental illness a condition that takes over your life, it can destroy your hopes and passions and it can even ruin relationships with loved ones and friends. If treated well with the right care and support we can learn to manage it without ruining our lives. Thanks to the Internet we have access to so much information and social websites like YouTube give people the opportunity to express themselves and share things with the world.
A few months ago I was filming one of my sissy visitors at The Fluffy Boudoir. I had given her some cleaning duties and when she finished I went around to inspect her work. I had taken my video camera with me and during one point I mentioned that I like things to be even and with my OCD I like things to be put back in its place. Now to most people they probably wouldn’t think twice about what I had said. To be honest even I had forgotten that I even mentioned it but it did attract one person who contacted me who saw the clip.
He said one of the main reasons he wanted to come to see me was because he too suffers from OCD.
When he came over we had so much to talk about, I guess we had so much in common. We sat and talked for over an hour which was fine for both of us…. we weren’t in any hurry. His condition seemed to be a lot more severe than mine and he also had a stutter while talking. On the day we did a full transformation and we even went out shopping and bought some shoes. The most amazing thing was that while she was dressed as her lovely feminine self her stutter had vanished. I mentioned this to her and she couldn’t believe it. She didn’t noticed that she was having a normal conversation with me. I can’t mention her name as I promised I wouldn’t.
I’ve had people ask me, how do I manage OCD in the industry that I’m in?…With great difficulties is what I always say. I have learnt how to manage it without going out of my mind. Yes, it is very hard, especially when I have a visitor coming to my home. This has been the hardest, though I always know that everything will be Okay. But still there is the whole process of going through my daily routine involving a systematic way of doing things.
If you’re planning to visit me then you have been warned hahahhaha just joking…..Really, there is nothing to worry about I guarantee you will have a great day while in my presence. The best thing about it is you just never know what to expect from me.
Here is the clip that I was referring to.
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